#6

People and experiences were changing. Groups began to emerge but I still haven’t met much beyond the canteen borderlines. By this time, the only world I saw was, Me, Catrina and Jessica (nicknamed Fodmn)

Fuck.On.Dog.Meat.Now

I believe it was created by Emily ly. Yeah, I use to think "wtf, is wrong with you? are you normal". But of course I'm glad you're not.

Well Catrina’s house was probably the first time I stepped out of the house and into..

LIFE.
Seriously I lost my No-life-No-outing-viginity to her house.

and I was scared for my first time. Hyperventilate.

Seriously, this was the first time I got out with someone on my own, other than family, and into someone else house, into their bedroom as well. Anyways, We were there to do an assignment for science. The topic was pretty much make anything related to space. We made earth, a comet, a sun and stick people. I remember my job at that time was to shred newspapers so we could paper mache balloons. When they gave me that instruction, I was like

“But I shred paper messy and not straight”
“You’re suppose to shred messy and not straight”
Yeah,, honestly I didn’t knew what ‘shred’ actually meant...

So I ripped a strand, Looked at them, and they nodded, which meant I’m doing this right. Phew

Meanwhile Jessica was working on the lightbulb mechanic to put inside the sun, which I found was pretty impressive, especially coming from a girl. I'd just stare at her in amazement, while doing my awesome important shredding job. Also I learnt how to make glue from flour and hot water :D. The assignment was a success with 29/30. Catherine's group went overboard with also a like 30 page hand-in information about their project too. Because I like lost my no-life-no-outing-virginity I believed I was allowed to think "wow, what try-hard nerds". They got 30/30.

Around this time was when, for the first time, I felt like I belonged . We talked about anything and I had so much fun hanging out with them usually at their houses. At this time my grammar was awful Always having the same feuds such as.

Me: “What did I did?”
Jess and catrina together: “what did I DO!!”
Catrina: “No DOUBLE NEGATIVE” *while throwing a little tantrum which involved repetitively hitting the air downwards*
Me: “Wait, What did I said?”
Jessica and Catrina : “What did I SAY”

Me and Catrina got pretty deep. Talking and discussing about the bad family and struggles. I think we felt comfortable because there was a lot we could relate to each other. And that honestly kept me going and I wanted to do so much to help her out in so many ways with her supposedly non-supportive brother and mother.

Yeah I love you guys so much. Oh My Nickname ‘Danny-suck-cock’ Died by now of course. And thanks to Catrina I got a more masculine one. “Pretty fingers” because of my apparently long, pretty feminine fingers. But that nick died because while playing basketball, Catrina asked to “pass the ball, pretty finger”,

and I stuck the rude finger at her...

PS: Thank you Emily ly and Lyanna Ros for motivating me.